I just wanted to say thank you to all those who have out poured support, love, and prayers since my
Trouble post. I'm doing much better. The mastitis seems to have passed and I'm only having twinges of pain here & there now. We have been able to feed L without supplementing with formula for the last week thanks to Peter letting me nap & rest as I've needed to & using fenugreek. Being rested & built up by God has made me feel more confident both in general & as a mom. My girls have also helped. My youngest gives me giant smiles every time she wakes up and sees me. My oldest is growing in new ways all the time. Last night she was trying on swim suits for her new lessons starting today and all of a sudden she went leaping through the air and yelled, "I'm a rock star!" It was both a precious thing & a challenge for me. It was precious to see her so carefree and confident. It was a challenge because I feel nothing like a rock star when I put on a swim suit. It made me wonder when we women lose that confidence and challenged me to reclaim it. Being the mom of a three year old girl is amazing that way. It is growing me as a woman as well as a mom. We, of course, have battles of the wills, but part of that is her developing into her own person. I remind myself regularly that her willfulness not only gives me opportunities to learn patience, but also is growing her into a more confident little girl. I want her to be able to make up her own mind and not be a follower. It's just very hard when I need her to obey as well. Teaching her to respect us as her parents and do as she is told, but still have a mind of her own is not an easy task. I'd totally welcome any advice on the balance others might have to offer. Another thing I've found encouraging as of late has been the blogs of other believers and moms. Here are a few I've been really enjoying:
The music of
Kendall Payne has been encouraging as well.
I must draw this to a close. It's time for the "Rock Star" to go to her first swim lesson without mom or dad by her side in the pool!
My only advice is trust yourself and have compassion for yourself. You will become an expert of you child (trust me). I read a lot of books on parenting to keep me going, but everyone has their inspiration and knows their own kid when they take the time to process who they really are. You'll know how to develop the amazing woman your daughter is meant to be...and trust God.
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